Deprogrammed

As I pondered the thought of evolving as an artist
I was inside of my office mediating in the darkness
An uncomfortable pounding was hitting in my chest
When The Patient walked in, I was sitting at my desk
As my thought reached his height, the room became bright
Then I stood up and slapped him for turning on the light
Then I told him to get sitten, as he started to explain
How the negative influences had targeted his brain
"The wretchedness defeated my ability to fight it
I know that is atrocious, but somehow I grew to like it"
In one minute I deciphered the symptom, "shut up and listen
You've been poisoned in condition through audio repetition
In media, false religions and visual exhibitions
The medicine to the sickness requires no prescription"
I opened up a cabinet, the container was revealed
I told him to be still, lay back and take this pill...

- What are you tryna do? - I'm going to deprogram you
- What are you going to do?  - I'm going to deprogram you
- No ! Just let me go, I can't stand you, doctor damn you !
- You'll thank me when I'm through, just let me deprogram you


- What are you tryna do? - I'm going to deprogram you
- What are you going to do?  - I'm going to deprogram you
- No ! Just let me go, I can't stand you, doctor damn you !
- You'll thank me when I'm through, just let me deprogram you


It was obvious, his mind was rejecting, 'cause he was choking
Three seconds after he took it, his body started convulsing
I've been doing this for years, I'm trained, I'm not a novice
So I recognized quickly an exorcism was in progress
The process wasn't clean, he was harder to redeem
This was one of the most extreme cases I've ever seen
I expected a little resistance, but never a reject
Hooked his brain to thing that showed his thoughts on a projector screen
Every idea and dream he ever dreamed
Told my secretary Jane to bring me a nectarine
As I ate it I sat back, and let the method take its course
It rewound back, eventually landing at the source
When the needle spiked hard, I got anxious
I saw how the dangerous language came through his subconscious chambers
Initiating gradual changes that were rendering him brainless
The power blew and shorted out the main switch...

- What are you tryna do? - I'm going to deprogram you
- What are you going to do?  - I'm going to deprogram you
- No ! Just let me go, I can't stand you, doctor damn you !
- You'll thank me when I'm through, just let me deprogram you


My maintenance coordinator power degenerated
Then I placed him in the great situational simulator
Filled his conscience with both beneficial and nonsense
Featured good and evil and monitored his responses
With weaker content. his vessel prorated about
Anything positive, he regurgitated it out
I leaned over the table, the screen, don't let it break you
This fake music was specially designed to overtake you
The superficial nature of this garbage I reveal
It's an audio mirage, this stuff is not even real
It's only a spell they set to keep your true potential in the basement
Demented, strategical, radio placement
I thought it would get better, but then I saw them chances
He started yelling "TURN UP" and doing funny dances
He seemed to be getting worse than he was when he came in
I hollaed for my intern to come help me restrain him
He would die, if I couldn't stop the ignorance from reigning
The clock was ticking down, only two minutes remaining
To save him I was racing, but he gave no indication
My track record's impeccable, I've never lost a patient
So failure I never knew, each second the pressure grew
Came to the conclusion that was only one thing left to do
He's nearly a vegetable, I have to handle this directly
Laid on a table next to him, told my intern to connect me
And effectively inject more intellect, 'til he was stable
Similar to car batteries connected with jumper cables
But if it didn't work I would lose all my brain fluid
My intern said "please, don't!", I said "shut up and do it!"
When he plugged me in to try it, sparks flew from the wires
The lights was flicking on and off, the room was on fire
And verbal communication after that was non-verbal
The screen said "TOTAL COMPLETION TRANSFERAL"
The course had run thrall, but something was still concerning
Inside us, both us laid motionless on the gurney
The patient's eyes opened as the sum beamed through the window
My team started removing the chords from my temples
He raised up and said he was healed, the method's proven
They waited for me to respond, still I wasn't moving
They entertained the thought that I had let my tactics break me
They did everything in their power to resuscitate me
One of them read the Bible as I laid there idle
And multiple devices were used to check the vitals
They shocked me...medicated me, but still wasn't recovering
They worked to bring me back a whole hour, but still nothing
Grateful for my sacrifice and all of my devotion
They drove me 700 miles and place me in the ocean
I flooded out the sea, as they cried and started grieving
They stayed the entire evening, said some words before leaving
They traveled home mourning the demise of The Doctor
Returned to the facility to empty out their lockers
They came up to the building, walked inside and nearly lost it
Looked up the hall and saw me watching TV in my office
Drinking a cup of coffee, relaxed, trying to chill
As The Patient tried to hug me, I just handed him the bill
Everyone was like "We thought you had suffered sure disaster"
I said "Yes, I know, that's why you're the students and I'm the master"

Now get back to work

Point Number 12

Shout out to The God.

The wise scientist convened
And decided that it was time for a new God to come up on the scene
The Book said he'd come from the East
To seek and save the Lord, crush Satan and bring universal peace
Born in The Holy Land, known as the Great Son of Men
Now is time to make the planet understand
His name was Fard Muhammad
In the consul of the 24 scientists, his father came from it
He came through to put in work,
His purpose was planned out by his father years before his birth
He instantly took him under his wing
Traveled around, reading the great books of wisdom from the kings
His existence defined the inspired
And even as a child saw himself pushing the wicked in the fire
Studying and reading, becoming the all seeing
Eventually reaching the level of supreme being
Some people are disagreeing and leaning
To the Devil's way of thinking and believing, not understanding the meaning
He saw the universe and he scanned it
As he mastered the atmosphere, weighed the water and measured the planets
Calculating the distance between 'em
And made atoms split in which planets in the galaxy were inhabited
Measured how many miles the universe spans
Knew the history of every people and who's the first man
Every race, every nation, every tribe
42 years of study makes him more than qualified to preside
To unlearn minds is kinda hard
How a man born in 1877 can be the God?
The physical form always changed
And from the beginning in many vessels That essence was contained
The energy and power remained
But the God of today and Him that created the Earth ain't the same
God said it was coming his time
So to move among the people he's making a habitat especially designed
The black man was last in line
Fresh out of slavery, yet still confined to the white supremacist mind
Self hate and no self love
So in 1930 he came to Detroit to teach us who we was
A buzz sparked off from his activity
Made us react vividly, teaching on black liberty
Gave us exact history, atoms were cracked instantly
We are descendants of The Creator, the facsimile
Satan attacked wickedly, casting Its wack trickery
But Fard showed Ellaijah where it was at, scripturally
And what's beyond this, and what was to come next
He put the word of the Bible in today's context
Destruction of America, the wielders and work above 'em
Aircrafts you call UFOs and the purpose of 'em
And who the real Devil is, what Hell and what Heaven is
The identity of the land breaking the seven seals
Right through the revelation, no, this is not a game
Master atomic creation, that's how we got His name
Fard Muhammad
Master Fard Muhammad.

Us

We at that point where we gotta start doing for self
No more time to point fingers and place blame
Let's get up

We out here tryna dodge prison, in the valley of decision
One foot in this dirty world and the other in religion
Relationships are broken (why?), 'cause everybody's roachin'
And most of them is still hanging, just going through the motions
And unity is dying, and money problems persistent
Nobody wants to work to get on top, they want it instant
When we get it, we abuse it 'cause we don't know how to use it 
And usually, as soon as we do we foolishly lose it
Before others you question, first do a self-assessment
'Cause what you hate about them, you might be a reflection
You wonder why you grieving and no success you reachin'?
The way you are is shaped by the company that you keepin'
You negative and sensitive and dwelling on the worst part
And every time you don't win is always someone's else fault
And when it fall apart and your plan get that hole in it
You blame the world instead of acknowledging your role in it

We still going through so much
(They still got us going through it, mayne)
Everything falls on US
(Everything, they wanna blame it on the ghetto)
We feeling no love, no trust
(Don't nobody care about you, man, let's unify)
Everything falls on US
('Cause if we don't, we all soon to die)

Don't be gassed by the flashes, this world is all fraud
See a humble man rises, the arrogant fall hard
Friends will sell you out fast and they proving is true
'Cause you ridin' for them, that don't mean they'll do it for you
An intuitive few suffered to make sure anyone else stray
It's crazy, 'cause my love for them is stronger than their self-hate
Meanwhile I'm practicing on getting it right
I might be the worst person that I ever met in my life
These canned men they gon' have to come again, it's like a re-release
I break ties with fake friends like it's three a piece
How can I trust that I'll be good in the long run
When everybody at my intervention need their own done
I think I need some more time to assist this
Waking up from eight hours of sleep and still restless
I'm having a big bash for me, and everyone I mess with
Got a blank sheet on my desk - (What is that?) - My guests list

We still going through so much
(They still got us going through it, mayne)
Everything falls on US
(Everything, they wanna blame it on the ghetto)
We feeling no love, no trust
(Don't nobody care about you, man, let's unify)
Everything falls on US
('Cause if we don't, we all soon to die)

Somebody need to give the judge a jail sentence
So he can know how it feels to live in hell with us
I know you see us as animals, dumb and lower status
But we don't deserve all that time you throwing at us
We got the game so wrig, we almost gotta lose
Locking us up for selling something that you probably use
You want slavery, so that's the solution
See, it's still legal if you in jail, that's in the constitution
They come home and no job, so they return to you
Dollars needed so they get popped for tryna earn a few
And we don't take responsibility, we burn 'em too
Mad at what our children do when we the ones  they learned it through
You think you ballin' 'cause you got a chain, a car, you dumb
The true baller is the company you bought it from
How come we hate each other shine? What's the matter, dude
But once I lose you got that "better him than me" attitude

We still going through so much
(They still got us going through it, mayne)
Everything falls on US
(Everything, they wanna blame it on the ghetto)
We feeling no love, no trust
(Don't nobody care about you, man, let's unify)
Everything falls on US
('Cause if we don't, we all soon to die)

Never Born

"I hate this world. Sometimes...sometimes I wish that I was never born"


Imagine if my existence hadn't been indented yet
Imagine if my parents was strangers and had never met
Or, even if they did, from that path they could've strayed
And decided to go somewhere else the day that I was made
Or maybe they still played it out completely, but instead
Another semen heir, that I was racing, beat me to the egg, and
Not being the first one, and noticeably the worst one
And mama ended up birthing a totally different person
With a weaker mind, think of hard would be to last
Suppose that he was still a rap artist, but he was trash
Nothing that I did would ever be done, righteous or bad
And no one would care, 'cause you can't miss what you never had
Sad, when I hit my lowest and all sympathy died
And success was like a cab that wouldn't give me a ride
So, how other would there out be if no one knew about me?
And would my family and friends would better off without me?

If I was never born, how different would it be?
Would people feel the loss of somebody they'd never see?
Indirectly be affected good or negatively
Or another dude was walking this road, rather than me?
If I was never born, would thangs be the same way?
Or would my absence cause uppers to go or stray?
The exclusion of K from life's continual numbers
Since I'm here and I'll never find out, I just wonder

My nonexistence in the world might triple a threat
And misdirect the whole universes ripple effect
The world' portrait, minus me, would be differently painted
People I introduced might have never been acquainted
With no way to explain it or acknowledge it, or feel it
The people that I talked outta doing wrong might have did it
The lies I affected would possibly be destroyed
Or maybe God would send somebody else to fill the void
But on the flip side, what about the bad deeds?
The evil seeds I planted that grew at fast speeds
Wicked things that I was doing that left some lives ruined
Might have not happened, have they not fell under my influence
Was me being here worth it? I defeated my purpose
The worst part is knowing that I could never reverse it
Now my self unification got me facing frustration
The contemplation that I might be a wasted creation

If I was never born, how different would it be?
Would people feel the loss of somebody they'd never see?
Indirectly be affected good or negatively
Or another dude was walking this road, rather than me?
If I was never born, would thangs be the same way?
Or would my absence cause uppers to go or stray?
The exclusion of K from life's continual numbers
Since I'm here and I'll never find out, I just wonder

Now, even if you feel like you was born outta season
Don't sit around believing that you're here for no reason
If the planets snow around the Sun, they have to rotate
You should know you have a purpose, is just yours to locate
Find yourself, cultivate your talents, God will support it
The womb is not the only place that life can be aborted
Your dream died in your head the second that you htought it
'Cause you didn't have the faith to act on it and get it started
Sore, depressed, suicidal, feeling hopeless and left out
Life ain't a supermarket, stop trying to check yourself out
There's a blessing in each struggle, if you look deep, explore it
A wise person use his setbacks to move forward
...If you was never born? That would be a disaster
No love, no accomplishments and no laughter
And did you ever wonder, maybe a present pain
Could've blocked by a friend or love, one who never came?

If I was never born, how different would it be?
Would people feel the loss of somebody they'd never see?
Indirectly be affected good or negatively
Or another dude was walking this road, rather than me?
If I was never born, would thangs be the same way?
Or would my absence cause uppers to go or stray?
The exclusion of K from life's continual numbers
Since I'm here and I'll never find out, I just wonder

I Just Wanna Know

When you ask yourself these questions...
Just no one understand that...it's a lot of us asking the same questions with you
But don't be afraid...To wonder and question why things ain't perfect and why things don't always line up the way

you plan 'em
Don't be scared to ask, whole lot of things I wanna know

I just wanna know what my purpose is
Will I ever win or am I living out worthless years?
Can I conquer the heaviness of my nervous fears?
When will I stop saturating the Earth with tears?
Try'na over-fix a problem only makes it worse
Don't you hate when you do something you can't reverse?
I wore down every shoe I put my foot in
When will I finally win for all this hard work that I put in?
How come it's so easy to fall in love with people
But so hard to overcome the pain, once they leave you?
Generosity die when we discover greed
Being negligent and barely thinking of our seeds (see?)
Material things, we love indeed
How come we constantly put our wants above our needs?
I'm try'na learn, I ain't try'na harass
They say the only stupid question is the one you don't ask
So...

I just wanna how it looks, how it feels
To be living in the state of peace surrounded by The Real
I just wanna know, before it's all said and done
Will I ever cash in, will my time ever come?
Money don't make me, please don't confuse it
You with me I got it, but you gone when I lose it
I feel bad, 'cause I did wrong in the past
I don't mind a little struggle, but how long do it last?

I got my own load to carry, I can show you that
Try'na help unappreciative people, I'm over that
They just wanna try get a piece of what you holding, Black
And keep me in their circle like a house in the Coalsack
After the break up, seems like my ex is wiser
I saw her acting so polite, I barely recognized her
I argued hard to teach her who she was and who she wasn't
I guess my job was to train her for her future husband
I ain't sure of your intentions, though I'm seeing clues...
Do you ever get the feeling that you're being used? (Yeah)
I can't count how many times I've been wrong in life
I ain't always right, sometimes I question my own advice
When I'm on the outside I wish that I was in
And once I'm in I see that it's nothing and wanna leave again
'Cause what good is increasing my wealth
If I'm wrestling everyday to find peace with myself
So...

I just wanna how it looks, how it feels
To be living in the state of peace surrounded by The Real
I just wanna know, before it's all said and done
Will I ever cash in, will my time ever come?
Money don't make me, please don't confuse it
You with me I got it, but you gone when I lose it
I feel bad, 'cause I did wrong in the past
I don't mind a little struggle, but how long do it last?

How come the real soldiers got no one to ride for 'em?
Why do we worship shoes so much we sleep outside for 'em? (Foolish)
Deception even in religion, now, the Church is proof
How come we rather live in ignorance than search for truth
I say the hood done lost hopin', I bet you whatever
A church on every corner, but is more wretched than ever
The dope man getting money at a faster rate
Liquor store too and they don't even have to pass the plate
Without wanting a change, we'll never be free, exactly !
What makes another person mad when they see you happy?
Don't tell God how big your problem are, the world is His
Flip it around, tell your problems how big God is
Wassup with the hate on every dime we try to make?
I just wanna know how many more beatings we gotta take
When we gonna learn that they don't want us to populate
Mustsees are real small, it don't take a lot of fate
So...

I just wanna how it looks, how it feels
To be living in the state of peace surrounded by The Real
I just wanna know, before it's all said and done
Will I ever cash in, will my time ever come?
Money don't make me, please don't confuse it
You with me I got it, but you gone when I lose it
I feel bad, 'cause I did wrong in the past
I don't mind a little struggle, but how long do it last?

Tower Of Sadness

JFK:
For we are opposed around the world by a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy that relies primarely on covert means for expanding its sphere of influenceon infiltration instead of invasion, on subversion instead of elections, on intimidation instead of free choice, on guerrillas by night instead of armies by day.

What are the causes and the seeds of depression?
Who's ultimately affected ? These are the questions
We all stand guilty and in need of a blessing
So we weave through the scriptures
To read as a reference
Foundations were laid years ago, etched in
Neglecting, rejection sent you in that direction
Your heart was exposed with no type of protection
The innocence you displayed was met with aggression
Lethal Injections to my trust of the masses
In the vein of my good side the needle was casted
Seeking to find peace in an hour of madness
Tryin'a stop adding bricks to my tower of sadness
Every day the hurt builds, deeper and deeper it drills
Nobody is understanding so I keep it concealed
All these artificial people say they're keeping it real
False happiness in alcohol, reefer and pills
Come on


Tryin'a find my way through all this darkness in my life
In the meantime until that day, I keep runnin' towards that light
And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best
All day long I keep on runnin' til I reach that happiness
(Happiness?)


They sit watching me closely, hesitant to approach me
Hoping that I'll let a professional diagnose me
Instead of communicating, they wait to sedate me
Making me deflate to unsafely medicate me
And turn me to a vegetable
With anti-depressants, bro
A cocktail of Paxil, Zoloft and Lexapro
The Prozac and Cymbalta make my moods alter
Not only mentally but my physical started to falter
So hard, oh Lord, no money, no job
Won't starve, options? sell dope, go rob
Can't seem to get no peace of mind
It's so chaotic and frustrating, borderline schizo
Deal with it, Get help, must make a fast choice
Conversations in my head, good voice, bad voice
Don't jump, jump now, somebody come help me
I just wish that me in my own head would accept me


Tryin'a find my way through all this darkness in my life
In the meantime until that day, I keep runnin' towards that light
And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best
All day long I keep on runnin' til I reach that happiness
(Happiness?)


Mind state not good, hurting since childhood
Over time your heart got harder than plywood
Trying to avert war, peace is what you search for
Abused from your parents, constructed the first floor
From love they disarmed you, the drugs only harm you
The mental facilities they build don't reform you
Every night you fight to not use the rifle
Your offspring heirs is the generational cycle
If tears could come out my eyes I would have been crying
They must be going backward and drowning me from the inside
Depression is testing me, a real problem I might have
Stress is the ocean and I'm floating on a life raft
Prayers in my head but I'm too shook to dial one
Everybody claim they got faith until the trial come
Long as you live you gon' have to face a lot of tests
You can take God all day with no side effects

Tryin'a find my way through all this darkness in my life
In the meantime until that day, I keep runnin' towards that light
And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best
All day long I keep on runnin' til I reach that happiness
(Happiness?)

The Maven

Tonight, on Lyrical Masterpiece Theater I will be reading one of my greatest works.

THE MAVEN.

After years of mindless content and frivolous crap
A man became dissatisfied with the condition of RAP
The powers done, the lyrics down it made the listeners adapt
Soon, his mental plate became a blinding midst on the map
But his vision was never fazed, because his eyes had been raised
Over time he came of age and then grew wise in his ways
He reflected on the great artists and some of the gull
Then he envisioned hearing one writer who had composed 'em all
To overcome this ignorance, nothing was stalling his thirst
He spent hours collecting, reading, studying all of their works
Traveled all over the planet where great thoughts were bestowed
Sacred priests, scepters and sages from all parts of the globe
Read relentlessly for weeks, before deciding to speak
He mastered every vocal tone and every writing technique
A scholarly product with a self-made prodigy conscience
He memorized past, present and future bodies of knowledge
Organizing, knowing the solution soon to be born
His next step? Compile it all into a humanly form
So he was eloquent and delivered words with intricate timing
And possessed lyrical skill, he had no interest in rhyming
So he ventured down to his lab, which had been his escape
And after working for 20 days straight an image was shaped
He deposited all his wisdom, every infinite trait
And when he finished, he rendered what he had invented was great
His creation laid on the gurney, once summoned arose
And instantly became to compose the most dominant flows
Every hour of the day a different style he'd create
And when he spoke, every man, woman and child could relate
Just when it seemed the population might be hurled to his grave
The man smiled because he thought, now, that the world would be saved
And soon the sky, his weatherman to surface would be
He has successfully manufactured the perfect MC
The intellect that passed through his brain, the masses obtained
And within days the nature of the game had drastically changed
Through his sorrow and will, deep marvelous thoughts were revealed
And those who held on to the madness got slaughtered with skill
Lyrical prototype who wrote words for the love, not wages
And the greatness of his rap pages were passed through the ages
The motivation to make meaningful songs was contagious
Each writer evolved daily through his creative stages
The negative ideologies of life were obtruded
The first 365 day cycle concluded
But on the 366th day, it was strange
The creation the man had brought to life was starting to change
Accolades under his name and international fame
Until totally uncontrollable he slowly became
Intoxicated by his own flame, so arrogance rained
The insane notion of world dominance mastered his brain
Exploitation of the game, through the skill that he used
He had evolved into the same thing he was built to remove
Training ingrain in his memory was unmatchable ability
Natural skill indeed, but he was lacking in humility
The builder watched his dream disappearing in haste
With tears in his face, his creation was clearly a waste
The mistake that he made in making a rapper of that caliber
He focused on talent and knowledge but added no character
Now is racking the streets with a savage misty
Deadly havoc with every paragraph he would speak
So the man searched, traveling roads, famished in cold
Looking for a mechanical load and tyrannical mole
Since he designed him, he felt in mandatory to find him
The goal was to catch him, deactivate, then realine him
As he searched and explored he saw things were worse than before
Heard a murderous roar, followed up by verses of war
He ran up to a door, where a stranger took him to key
Once inside a voice straight ahead said "Looking for me?"
And there he was, with a smile as if he liked that he found him
His mic was outstanding, plus he had disciples around him
As the man approached he heard there 3 words "I dare you"
He said "You're not yourself, come back to the lab, I'll repair you!"
"I can't have you killing rap, so come with me, I implore it"
He said "Your existence versus mine. I'll battle you for it"
He thought and said "Oh..No, I want no parts of a flow"
"Why would you turn against the man who taught you all that you know?"
That's when he laughed and said "I'm the one that you should kneel to"
He said "You stupid fool, you didn't build me, I built you"
"Programmed you to be like me, I prepared this confusion"
"Every detail of our history is a spell of delusion"
"When I tried to teach you my plans, you rebelled on the movement"
"So I banished you and held you in a hellish seclusion"
"My craziest deeds, you were just unable to heed"
"So the idea that you created me, I made you believe"
The man said "I worked on this for years, is lies that your speak"
He said "I made it to appear as years, it's only been weeks"
"I'm the architect of you and every bar that was formed"
"Raise your right sleeve, I'm sure you've seen that scar on your arm"
"How I assembled you is too complex to try to describe"
"But if you peel that scar you'll notice several wires inside"
"You are my greatest masterpiece, top of the line of my clones"
"But I developed you so well, you gained a mind of your own"
"And started spreading conscious thought: east, west, south to the north"
"So I drew you out of solitude to finish you off"
"And though is definite you possess several lyrical elements"
"You're scared of expressing it, that's why you vocally hesitant"
Discouraged, the man dropped his head "It's no use"
Looked at wires in his arm and slowly pulled 'em a loose
Then both good and bad ideologies mentally flashed
The conscious forces and the wicked forces instantly clashed
And everybody in the room, vaporized in a flame
'Til, eventually, the two men were all who remained
The anarchy that exuded caused the world to divide
And the followers of both sides became to collide
And then the sealing opened up and they both looked in the sky
There they saw a giant silhouette of a much bigger guy
He commanded everything to stop and nobody moved
He said "This war is over right now and both of you lose"
"You lose because you took the talent that you possessed
And got obsessed with power and used it to conquer the rest"
"See, you were blessed with the best given lyrical rod"
"You didn't build this man, that was a deceptive facade"
The other man said "I knew it, but sir, how did I lose?"
The giant said "You had the skill to challenge, but you refused"
He said "I came to fix him back, so this fight I'd avoid"
He said "Some things can never be fixed, they must be destroyed"
"And though you tried to reason with him, don't believe you succeeded"
"Many were lost because they didn't have the wisdom they needed"
"See, you deleted all your hard work, your moment was here"
"But you failed, because you power wasn't strong as your fear"
"This test is completed", they said "Who are you?", then I spoke...
"My name is K-RINO....and I created you both"

HA? HA HA HA HA HA HA.
HA, HA, HA, HA.