I Just Wanna Know

When you ask yourself these questions...
Just no one understand that...it's a lot of us asking the same questions with you
But don't be afraid...To wonder and question why things ain't perfect and why things don't always line up the way

you plan 'em
Don't be scared to ask, whole lot of things I wanna know

I just wanna know what my purpose is
Will I ever win or am I living out worthless years?
Can I conquer the heaviness of my nervous fears?
When will I stop saturating the Earth with tears?
Try'na over-fix a problem only makes it worse
Don't you hate when you do something you can't reverse?
I wore down every shoe I put my foot in
When will I finally win for all this hard work that I put in?
How come it's so easy to fall in love with people
But so hard to overcome the pain, once they leave you?
Generosity die when we discover greed
Being negligent and barely thinking of our seeds (see?)
Material things, we love indeed
How come we constantly put our wants above our needs?
I'm try'na learn, I ain't try'na harass
They say the only stupid question is the one you don't ask
So...

I just wanna how it looks, how it feels
To be living in the state of peace surrounded by The Real
I just wanna know, before it's all said and done
Will I ever cash in, will my time ever come?
Money don't make me, please don't confuse it
You with me I got it, but you gone when I lose it
I feel bad, 'cause I did wrong in the past
I don't mind a little struggle, but how long do it last?

I got my own load to carry, I can show you that
Try'na help unappreciative people, I'm over that
They just wanna try get a piece of what you holding, Black
And keep me in their circle like a house in the Coalsack
After the break up, seems like my ex is wiser
I saw her acting so polite, I barely recognized her
I argued hard to teach her who she was and who she wasn't
I guess my job was to train her for her future husband
I ain't sure of your intentions, though I'm seeing clues...
Do you ever get the feeling that you're being used? (Yeah)
I can't count how many times I've been wrong in life
I ain't always right, sometimes I question my own advice
When I'm on the outside I wish that I was in
And once I'm in I see that it's nothing and wanna leave again
'Cause what good is increasing my wealth
If I'm wrestling everyday to find peace with myself
So...

I just wanna how it looks, how it feels
To be living in the state of peace surrounded by The Real
I just wanna know, before it's all said and done
Will I ever cash in, will my time ever come?
Money don't make me, please don't confuse it
You with me I got it, but you gone when I lose it
I feel bad, 'cause I did wrong in the past
I don't mind a little struggle, but how long do it last?

How come the real soldiers got no one to ride for 'em?
Why do we worship shoes so much we sleep outside for 'em? (Foolish)
Deception even in religion, now, the Church is proof
How come we rather live in ignorance than search for truth
I say the hood done lost hopin', I bet you whatever
A church on every corner, but is more wretched than ever
The dope man getting money at a faster rate
Liquor store too and they don't even have to pass the plate
Without wanting a change, we'll never be free, exactly !
What makes another person mad when they see you happy?
Don't tell God how big your problem are, the world is His
Flip it around, tell your problems how big God is
Wassup with the hate on every dime we try to make?
I just wanna know how many more beatings we gotta take
When we gonna learn that they don't want us to populate
Mustsees are real small, it don't take a lot of fate
So...

I just wanna how it looks, how it feels
To be living in the state of peace surrounded by The Real
I just wanna know, before it's all said and done
Will I ever cash in, will my time ever come?
Money don't make me, please don't confuse it
You with me I got it, but you gone when I lose it
I feel bad, 'cause I did wrong in the past
I don't mind a little struggle, but how long do it last?

Tower Of Sadness

JFK:
For we are opposed around the world by a monolithic and ruthless conspiracy that relies primarely on covert means for expanding its sphere of influenceon infiltration instead of invasion, on subversion instead of elections, on intimidation instead of free choice, on guerrillas by night instead of armies by day.

What are the causes and the seeds of depression?
Who's ultimately affected ? These are the questions
We all stand guilty and in need of a blessing
So we weave through the scriptures
To read as a reference
Foundations were laid years ago, etched in
Neglecting, rejection sent you in that direction
Your heart was exposed with no type of protection
The innocence you displayed was met with aggression
Lethal Injections to my trust of the masses
In the vein of my good side the needle was casted
Seeking to find peace in an hour of madness
Tryin'a stop adding bricks to my tower of sadness
Every day the hurt builds, deeper and deeper it drills
Nobody is understanding so I keep it concealed
All these artificial people say they're keeping it real
False happiness in alcohol, reefer and pills
Come on


Tryin'a find my way through all this darkness in my life
In the meantime until that day, I keep runnin' towards that light
And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best
All day long I keep on runnin' til I reach that happiness
(Happiness?)


They sit watching me closely, hesitant to approach me
Hoping that I'll let a professional diagnose me
Instead of communicating, they wait to sedate me
Making me deflate to unsafely medicate me
And turn me to a vegetable
With anti-depressants, bro
A cocktail of Paxil, Zoloft and Lexapro
The Prozac and Cymbalta make my moods alter
Not only mentally but my physical started to falter
So hard, oh Lord, no money, no job
Won't starve, options? sell dope, go rob
Can't seem to get no peace of mind
It's so chaotic and frustrating, borderline schizo
Deal with it, Get help, must make a fast choice
Conversations in my head, good voice, bad voice
Don't jump, jump now, somebody come help me
I just wish that me in my own head would accept me


Tryin'a find my way through all this darkness in my life
In the meantime until that day, I keep runnin' towards that light
And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best
All day long I keep on runnin' til I reach that happiness
(Happiness?)


Mind state not good, hurting since childhood
Over time your heart got harder than plywood
Trying to avert war, peace is what you search for
Abused from your parents, constructed the first floor
From love they disarmed you, the drugs only harm you
The mental facilities they build don't reform you
Every night you fight to not use the rifle
Your offspring heirs is the generational cycle
If tears could come out my eyes I would have been crying
They must be going backward and drowning me from the inside
Depression is testing me, a real problem I might have
Stress is the ocean and I'm floating on a life raft
Prayers in my head but I'm too shook to dial one
Everybody claim they got faith until the trial come
Long as you live you gon' have to face a lot of tests
You can take God all day with no side effects

Tryin'a find my way through all this darkness in my life
In the meantime until that day, I keep runnin' towards that light
And even if I don't succeed at least I know I did my best
All day long I keep on runnin' til I reach that happiness
(Happiness?)

The Maven

Tonight, on Lyrical Masterpiece Theater I will be reading one of my greatest works.

THE MAVEN.

After years of mindless content and frivolous crap
A man became dissatisfied with the condition of RAP
The powers done, the lyrics down it made the listeners adapt
Soon, his mental plate became a blinding midst on the map
But his vision was never fazed, because his eyes had been raised
Over time he came of age and then grew wise in his ways
He reflected on the great artists and some of the gull
Then he envisioned hearing one writer who had composed 'em all
To overcome this ignorance, nothing was stalling his thirst
He spent hours collecting, reading, studying all of their works
Traveled all over the planet where great thoughts were bestowed
Sacred priests, scepters and sages from all parts of the globe
Read relentlessly for weeks, before deciding to speak
He mastered every vocal tone and every writing technique
A scholarly product with a self-made prodigy conscience
He memorized past, present and future bodies of knowledge
Organizing, knowing the solution soon to be born
His next step? Compile it all into a humanly form
So he was eloquent and delivered words with intricate timing
And possessed lyrical skill, he had no interest in rhyming
So he ventured down to his lab, which had been his escape
And after working for 20 days straight an image was shaped
He deposited all his wisdom, every infinite trait
And when he finished, he rendered what he had invented was great
His creation laid on the gurney, once summoned arose
And instantly became to compose the most dominant flows
Every hour of the day a different style he'd create
And when he spoke, every man, woman and child could relate
Just when it seemed the population might be hurled to his grave
The man smiled because he thought, now, that the world would be saved
And soon the sky, his weatherman to surface would be
He has successfully manufactured the perfect MC
The intellect that passed through his brain, the masses obtained
And within days the nature of the game had drastically changed
Through his sorrow and will, deep marvelous thoughts were revealed
And those who held on to the madness got slaughtered with skill
Lyrical prototype who wrote words for the love, not wages
And the greatness of his rap pages were passed through the ages
The motivation to make meaningful songs was contagious
Each writer evolved daily through his creative stages
The negative ideologies of life were obtruded
The first 365 day cycle concluded
But on the 366th day, it was strange
The creation the man had brought to life was starting to change
Accolades under his name and international fame
Until totally uncontrollable he slowly became
Intoxicated by his own flame, so arrogance rained
The insane notion of world dominance mastered his brain
Exploitation of the game, through the skill that he used
He had evolved into the same thing he was built to remove
Training ingrain in his memory was unmatchable ability
Natural skill indeed, but he was lacking in humility
The builder watched his dream disappearing in haste
With tears in his face, his creation was clearly a waste
The mistake that he made in making a rapper of that caliber
He focused on talent and knowledge but added no character
Now is racking the streets with a savage misty
Deadly havoc with every paragraph he would speak
So the man searched, traveling roads, famished in cold
Looking for a mechanical load and tyrannical mole
Since he designed him, he felt in mandatory to find him
The goal was to catch him, deactivate, then realine him
As he searched and explored he saw things were worse than before
Heard a murderous roar, followed up by verses of war
He ran up to a door, where a stranger took him to key
Once inside a voice straight ahead said "Looking for me?"
And there he was, with a smile as if he liked that he found him
His mic was outstanding, plus he had disciples around him
As the man approached he heard there 3 words "I dare you"
He said "You're not yourself, come back to the lab, I'll repair you!"
"I can't have you killing rap, so come with me, I implore it"
He said "Your existence versus mine. I'll battle you for it"
He thought and said "Oh..No, I want no parts of a flow"
"Why would you turn against the man who taught you all that you know?"
That's when he laughed and said "I'm the one that you should kneel to"
He said "You stupid fool, you didn't build me, I built you"
"Programmed you to be like me, I prepared this confusion"
"Every detail of our history is a spell of delusion"
"When I tried to teach you my plans, you rebelled on the movement"
"So I banished you and held you in a hellish seclusion"
"My craziest deeds, you were just unable to heed"
"So the idea that you created me, I made you believe"
The man said "I worked on this for years, is lies that your speak"
He said "I made it to appear as years, it's only been weeks"
"I'm the architect of you and every bar that was formed"
"Raise your right sleeve, I'm sure you've seen that scar on your arm"
"How I assembled you is too complex to try to describe"
"But if you peel that scar you'll notice several wires inside"
"You are my greatest masterpiece, top of the line of my clones"
"But I developed you so well, you gained a mind of your own"
"And started spreading conscious thought: east, west, south to the north"
"So I drew you out of solitude to finish you off"
"And though is definite you possess several lyrical elements"
"You're scared of expressing it, that's why you vocally hesitant"
Discouraged, the man dropped his head "It's no use"
Looked at wires in his arm and slowly pulled 'em a loose
Then both good and bad ideologies mentally flashed
The conscious forces and the wicked forces instantly clashed
And everybody in the room, vaporized in a flame
'Til, eventually, the two men were all who remained
The anarchy that exuded caused the world to divide
And the followers of both sides became to collide
And then the sealing opened up and they both looked in the sky
There they saw a giant silhouette of a much bigger guy
He commanded everything to stop and nobody moved
He said "This war is over right now and both of you lose"
"You lose because you took the talent that you possessed
And got obsessed with power and used it to conquer the rest"
"See, you were blessed with the best given lyrical rod"
"You didn't build this man, that was a deceptive facade"
The other man said "I knew it, but sir, how did I lose?"
The giant said "You had the skill to challenge, but you refused"
He said "I came to fix him back, so this fight I'd avoid"
He said "Some things can never be fixed, they must be destroyed"
"And though you tried to reason with him, don't believe you succeeded"
"Many were lost because they didn't have the wisdom they needed"
"See, you deleted all your hard work, your moment was here"
"But you failed, because you power wasn't strong as your fear"
"This test is completed", they said "Who are you?", then I spoke...
"My name is K-RINO....and I created you both"

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