Tonight I'm Myself

I dunno what I wanna say, I'm writing it down here. I don't even know if you'll ever read this or maybe it'll remain another fragile illusion. If  words would be music I could sing for hours and hours telling you everything about me.
I then see you and there's something blocking me and I can't even say ''how you doing?". You're looking good in those jeans, you're looking good today. How wouldn't I want to fall in the same speeches heard one thousands times and ruin everything. How would I want to talk without preoccupations, without that feeling that impedes me from saying:

"That I really like you, even if I haven't told you so
'Cause it sucks trying just to get you in my bed
And I don't care if I still have to wait
To talk to you again
And tell you just one word, the sweetest possible
As the sea, as sex
Here I am, nothing complex"

So, this night is already over and I still dunno how you're inside. I don't really know if I'll see you again or if it will remain just another worthless occasion, or will I see you tomorrow again ?


"...I really like you, even if I haven't told you so
'Cause it sucks trying just to get you in my bed
And I don't really care if nothing has happened yet
I'll wait the right moment, and I hope it's not just once
I really hope as much as I can that it won't be just sex
This time I demand you"

I prefer staying alone than with a fake lover, and if I'll ever take flight then I'll still be waiting for you love. I hope it will be love. I don't know if it will be you or another illusion. But tonight I relax myself, I'm thinking of you and I'm writing this note, as sweet as I can.
As the sea, as sex, I demand it.
Tonight I'm myself, just myself.

Thinking Loud

It's so funny when you break up...I swear
If' you're true you'll feel very bad, but if you're fake you'll bash on the person you loved saying he/she didn't mean anything to you. Please, don't be that transparent . true  people will always see though ya. Having met your dreams and refusing them makes you not deserving. You should be living in the worse way...I'm still a fool though, and I forgive every bad you did to me so I hope you the best, I mean it.
Girl, not many men are like me and one day you'll remember me but it'll be too late, but I guess that's what life is. We're on a trial to achieve what's best for us. I'll do every good possible just to get to heaven and get to meet you again 'cause I wanna be with you again.  You offered me what my family didn't offer me, that being Love itself. You never knew my story, but you wouldn't care, it would have fascinated you, for sure though,
I may seem ugly and I"m doing it on purpose 'cause I wanna feel true love. I have lots of money, believe me, and I could change my motherfucking look right now, but I don't want it. I'm the truest person you could meet in your entire life, ask my truest friends. I don't get how people can say "I wanna meet the best person in my life", they meet it and they start having demands....Girl, what the fuck is wrong with you? Did I ever have demands towards you? I mean. my only pitiful demand was to see each other from time to time...
If I would go by human ideology I would have to hate any motherfucking thing breathing, but I can't, I'm true, mayne. You could trust me with you own life and not even knowing me, I would keep it secret and protect it. Eliminating narcissisms from this world has became my main purpose. You narcissists may laugh, but you're just pathetic, do you really think all the attention you're getting is deserved? Hahahaha, it's just 'cause of things you obtained or what you have that you get attention. You have a long way to go and one day you'll remember these words, if you ever read them 'cause human consciousness keeps everything ever seen/read/listened and released them at the most needful moment, still some people aren't capable to understand it. Guess I'll keep fighting for you, even if you do dirt and think wrong. I'll get in hell just so you can go to heaven. My only wish is  to know what you thought about me all your life.
It's all in your mind.
My only blessing in this world come from only 3 letters, and it's not God.
*Cries*

I Did Everything

"Myself and I, me, myself and I, me, myself and I, yes, my selfish pride
Myself and I, me, myself and I, me, myself and I, yes, my selfish pride"

I ain't never seen hatred at this rate, fam
19 years old, already thinking like a grown man
I don't think I could see the whole plan
I was busy loving, caring, thinking of the wrong female
Love come and go like dudes that fuck hoes
I know I'm right, 'cause you feel no remorse
So why the fuck do I need someone that doesn't deserve love for?
I'd rather fuck the world and leave you drowned in blood, hoe
I've seen a lotta shit, in fact I'ma see more
Flow so sigh, I'm surfing on the next Tsunami in Japan, though
I deliver it to your brain, ironically, you think I'm your foe
I did it by myself, just don't match to me, hoe
Long days wasted, you got my heart smoked
Now you're just a mirage I wouldn't want to cross on
And you know what? You may think my words are foul
I'd rather get a job, fuck rap, you can keep it, homs

Please recognize I did everything
Please recognize you didn't appreciate anything
Please recognize I did everything
You yourself and I, yes, thee selfish pride

Please recognize I did everything
Please recognize you didn't appreciate anything
Please recognize I did everything
You yourself and I, yes, thee selfish pride

"I'm the man, I don't give a fuck about a crew
Besides you hoes can't do the things that I do
They can't think infinitely like I do
Shit, can't even understand the words that I said to you"
Fool me, run after sunshine but found myself caged
And if I couldn't free myself nobody else could
"I'm good
So I'ma sound like nobody else would
Don't need no love, don't need no bitch don't need no feelings
Don't need you to understand what my life is"
Don't need to make you suffer of any kind
Don't need any major producer to bust rhymes
I'm the type of fella who writes songs to make y'all understand
Hope you already found out what parts of this song to you I dedicated
You think it's all about you? Fuck the world, who could feel it like you?
Hate yourself, jackass, who could hate you like you?

Please recognize I did everything
Please recognize you didn't appreciate anything
Please recognize I did everything
You yourself and I, yes, thee selfish pride

Please recognize I did everything
Please recognize you didn't appreciate anything
Please recognize I did everything
You yourself and I, yes, thee selfish pride

I'm the witness that could change your whole life scene, in fact I'm not the only one,
But just the only one that loves you so much that would get it done
I did everything I could to make you understand
Best believe I sinned, if it wasn't for you, friend
I wouldn't know what ignorance and hatred some people have within
Stick with my dreams, I carry on and move through a materialized sin
I'd want to make you understand by force, if I could
I speak from the deepest of my heart, fuck you, fool
Your actions were shit to me, I constantly stay on the surface
With my middle finger pointed at your face
I'm meant to be a devastation for mankind
Only a human female love could stop the end of time
Every word you hear is a landmine on your brain
It's Born Unique and I carry hate and vengeance in my gene

Please recognize I did everything
Please recognize you didn't appreciate anything
Please recognize I did everything
You yourself and I, yes, thee selfish pride

Please recognize I did everything
Please recognize you didn't appreciate anything
Please recognize I did everything
You yourself and I, yes, thee selfish pride

"Myself and I, me, myself and I, me, myself and I, yes, my selfish pride
Myself and I, me, myself and I, me, myself and I, yes, my selfish pride
Myself and I, me, myself and I, me, myself and I, yes, my selfish pride
Myself and I, me, myself and I, me, myself and I, yes, my selfish pride"

Remember

This is a story of a lady who begun to be mentally stressing
Lost all the love around her and started questioning God's blessings
In her eyes the sun was setting rise
'Cause her ambition and love were struggling: which one to be arise?
The questions multiplied 'cause of the things she had gone through
Stopped loving, then became isolated and mournful
Before you go further into this I gotta warn you,
She's now about to take a trip into the paranormal
Laying in the room, tears falling in volume
And a voice from the corner said 'what is your problem?
The pain is hard to heal, maybe that's true
Bu love is infinite", she said "Chris, is that you?"
"Yes, and I'm kinda upset at my supposed wife
Why are you acting dead when you still have life?
She said "I'm missing you" He told her "I know that you sad,
But be glad God let us have the moments we had"

Remember
The times we had
I know that
Your heart is sad
Don't worry
About how things seem to be
I want you to be glad
When think of me

The lady said "Chris, how can I love again?
Now that I remember, you were the one only one that ever cared"
He said "I'm sorry, I told you I wouldn't wait forever
There's a reason, though, why I'm here, to finally make you go for the better
Maybe it's time for you to finally change
And actually give what you get from people in exchange
All your life you've been living by your philosophy
Now you regret those years, you wish you could cut 'em off like a lobotomy
The reason why I appeared to you tonight
Is 'cause I'm the only one who could make you go right
You now understand my pain, and I'm sorry you did
I'm the materialized vision of something you can no longer achive
Suicide won't be helping, you'll bring me down with you
Think of everything you've gone through
You got a chance to see things out of the seed
Change your life sis, be even better than me"

Remember
The times we had
I know that
Your heart is sad
Don't worry
About how things seem to be
I want you to be glad
When think of me

"I know, life is cold
With no love I can't even imagine how you got this old
We all had hard times, but I elevate above the ground, it's always a beautiful day
Even if life brings you down, just be thankful anyway
Even when the rain come, or the clouds may be gray
Know you can always turn your problems around, if you look to God and pray
Think about the grass and the tress, the sun and the earth
The uncountable amounts of breath that you took since birth
"You don't need to let grief defeat you
I love you; I never intended to leave you"
''Yeah but you still did anyhow''
"Yes, so it's time to be a grown girl, now
 You never knew what real love is, but I thought you would be strong enough to utilize what I taught you"
"Ok, Chis, what you want me to do"
"Live, teach, give life to others like I gave it to you"

Remember
The times we had
I know that
Your heart is sad
Don't worry
About how things seem to be
I want you to be glad
When think of me

Gotta Get Better

Things gotta get better (Things gotta get better)
we struggle everyday (We struggle everyday)
to find a solution (To find a solution)
and make a better way. (And make a better way)

The other night, I was watching snapped on TV it was repeat but i was knee deep
In a storyline thinking that this could be me
My foot up in that same shoe, what do you do
To cope with the fact that not many of your dreams ever came true?
You try to look beyond the surface,
You hope and pray that God kept you from the front line and the limelight for a greater purpose.
Morbid scars man and blinded from far,
Am I the only one that sees how sick minded we are?
They say forgive and forget is the way we should live,
But I've been burned so many times I've forgot how to forgive.
What you think is cool ain't cool homie, start living wise
Come out of your trance pull up your pants look civilized.
We identify with dirt, we can't even spell hope,
Our condition is why these youngsters prostitute and sell dope.
But through it all I'm still down with'em I'll never impeach'em,
And every time I get a chance to chop it up with'em I teach'em.

Things gotta get better (Things gotta get better)
we struggle everyday (We struggle everyday)
to find a solution (To find a solution)
and make a better way. (And make a better way)
Things gotta get better (Things gotta get better)
We struggle everyday (We struggle everyday)
To find a solution (To find a solution)
And make a better way. (And make a better way)

This past year I've learned that most people's love for you only stems (from what?)
From you being a shoulder and what you can do for them.
But when the doing's done and there's no more to give the friendship's through
Trying your best not to deny them you end up denying you.
So what must I do to rid myself of those who are untrue?
one's who seek only for self and when exposed start acting new?
While I was helping you my own problems multiplied and grew.
Who can the counselor speak to when he needs to be counseled to?
So i speak to God and vent out my frustrations and my rages
And he answers me directly through the scriptures and his pages,
And i argue with myself while guilt and pain funnel through me,
And I'm trying to break the trend of hurting people closest to me.
I ain't trying to please the world, yeah, I wouldn't mind being rich,
But I ain't laughin' when it ain't funny or scratchin' when it don't itch.
Wise words from a wise man and I never forgot:
"I'd rather be hated for who I am than be loved for who I'm not".


Things gotta get better (Things gotta get better)
we struggle everyday (We struggle everyday)
to find a solution (To find a solution)
and make a better way. (And make a better way)
Things gotta get better (Things gotta get better)
We struggle everyday (We struggle everyday)
To find a solution (To find a solution)
And make a better way. (And make a better way)

Lord, can I...talk to you for a minute? I'm kinda trippin',
I know I've been outta line, lately, fallin' off and slippin'
But um ... I wanna thank you God for helpin' me through it all,
I know II'll slip again but I pray that you'll never let me fall.
Please forgive me for acts I've carried out places I've been,
For having the nerve to ask for a blessing five minutes after a sin.
Please guide me to obedience, cause I know that you demand that,
I'm blessed, I know my life could be worse and I understand that,
But it's like I'm still strugglin', and I'm gettin' bitter and hateful.
And when people sufferin', me asking for things seems ungrateful.
I just wanna feed my family, barely getting by is unnerving.
And only you know the real me and we both know I'm undeservin'.
When you start itching with flames help me get out of that range,
Remove the urge for me to go left and push my heart to change.
And when I'm face to face with temptation help me to be strong
And please don't let me stop doin' right cause others are doin' wrong (To me)

Things gotta get better (Things gotta get better)
we struggle everyday (We struggle everyday)
to find a solution (To find a solution)
and make a better way. (And make a better way)
Things gotta get better (Things gotta get better)
We struggle everyday (We struggle everyday)
To find a solution (To find a solution)
And make a better way. (And make a better way)

Things gotta get better (Things gotta get better)
we struggle everyday (We struggle everyday)
to find a solution (To find a solution)
and make a better way. (And make a better way)
Things gotta get better (Things gotta get better)
We struggle everyday (We struggle everyday)
To find a solution (To find a solution)
And make a better way. (And make a better way)

Spaceship

My Spaceship
I'm just tryna, uh...I dunno. I guess you can call it 'reach the space'
I'ma stay so fly than you people, like...I know this place where there's a Spaceship, you can sign up and come up with me
You really think I'm fucked up. Ok, here we go

You really thought I meant a ship?
You can fly without a ship
Don't stop reading 'cause you thought there was really gon' be a ship
How are you gon' help me if you feel like you wanna be the shit?
I'm just a blessed fool, took a while to notice it
You'll be on that love shit acting like my teammate
With everything you cremated, from the ashes I created
You can hate, that's ok, I'ma make you hate more
In fact, I invite you to play my own role
You can have my life, my money, I'ma just keep my heart though
'Cause that's the engine we'll use to fly above
A change of heart calls me, I can't anymore be the one before
I'ma face a million trials just to make you miss how I was
And I know that I might not get far, it's ok
I ain't got no reasons, I don't play
I don't say nothing that I really don't insinuate to do
You know where I am, I'll be watching over you

I'ma grind to the twilight
And show you people how real love's like
I'ma do it so slow, though
So even you can take the pace, so-so
I'ma grind to the twilight
And show you people how real love's like
Unfortunately some people will never get to know it
'Cause they be out of my Spaceship

First I had it planned out, now I must grind out
You said you got answers but I rather find mine
Baby, where you at? I'm gonna leave you here and there's no time-out
If y'all gonna take this as a game you will remain with the pain inside
I'ma leave and give ya all my bank accounts, mayne
Maybe with all that money they won't look at you like an alien
I wouldn't do so if I hadn't took some losses, though
I decided to fly, but I don't even know where I'ma go
I'm put in that position where 'she was my destination'
But now that she's gone I'ma fly to an unknown location
I'ma win, lose again, get back on my feet and start again
These words are just a reminder so I don't do the same mistake again,
But maybe I'ma do it again, since I'm an emotional fool, for now
I guess I've been spoken my love so I'll be signing out for now

I'ma grind to the twilight
And show you people how real love's like
I'ma do it so slow, though
So even you can take the pace, so-so
I'ma grind to the twilight
And show you people how real love's like
Unfortunately some people will never get to know it
'Cause they be out of my Spaceship

I'ma grind to the twilight
And show you people how real love's like
I'ma do it so slow, though
So even you can take the pace, so-so
I'ma grind to the twilight
And show you people how real love's like
Unfortunately some people will never get to know it
'Cause they be out of my Spaceship

Fuck youuu, I'm goneeee, hahaahah

My Life Of Love

Broken bones, shattered dreams.

I wasn't the kinda dude who use to fall in love
But I couldn't resist to this one girl
The type of girl I'd sit and contemplate marriage with
Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for hire
Disciplined, intellectual beauty's what I desire
Higher than the sun and constellations
Everyone told me, kicking it to her was hopeless
At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids
As the thug slicks always brag about how they smoke kids
But poor-sniff-intelligent kids got no play
"I'm not even interested", is what her body language would say
Everyone around the way, gave up trying to get in it
'Cause didn't matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it
On the block, bitches was jealous, but wouldn't admit it
Talk shit, and deny to everyone that they did it
'Cause they regretted the long list of people that they let hit it
And no one ever gave her shit except McDonald's and Burger King
Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it
She smoked intelligently and they bit it, always trying to copy
But when they tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy
She had a style, all her own, respectful and pure
I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a cure

Don't you know that time waits for no man?
No fate it's all planned
I'm blessed just to know you
I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night
Can't find, a reason why
God came, to you and I
If I had the chance again, I'd never let you go
Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never know

Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad
We used to go out occasionally and we was glad
I wasn't just another man tryna' get in it
So every now and then we'd stop and talk for a minute
I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours
On her birthday I should've gave her a poem with flowers
Would have wanted to take you out to dinner, fresh after a shower
And talk about random stuff like: power to the people and such
We'd spend more time together, but it was never enough
Sometimes I'd try and sneak a touch but never cop a feel
I was too interested in keeping it real, perfectly honest and complete
You'd never call me by my name, and that's something I loved
'Cause it made me understand you'd see more in me that I actually showed
The last time we saw each other I had intentions of buying you a book
You forever made me change the expressions of my thoughts, how I speak, my look
It was because of her I even deaded all of my freaks
Just with her love she convinced me to stop giving attention to the streets
To stop hating and judging people like you
I'd have loved to go on a far distant trip with you
Got to a point where I was either wit her or my crew
So I decided, one day, would tell her my feelings were true
I couldn't live without her, so I'd tell her, facing my fears
My honey's only response would be a face full of tears
She could only sob hysterically and holding me tight
I'd try o leave but you wouldn't stop until I'd leave sight
That's just how I'd have wanted to be, now I'm just a moth who got itself too close to light
Except I didn't burn but turned cold after that night

Don't you know that time waits for no man?
No fate it's all planned
I'm blessed just to know you
I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night
Can't find, a reason why
God came, to you and I
If I had the chance again, I'd never let you go
Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never know

Leaving me seemed like she ended my career
Lost the feeling of living, it will never completely disappear
People would talk to me like they were the overseer
I never listened to them, 'cause I still felt you near
One night in my room I closed my eyes and I seen her
Hold her close to my dreams, but when I opened them she disappeared
Just an empty shell, no longer whole
still waiting for that ring tone to play when you call me on my phone
The fact of the matter is that love made me more cold
Even after countless females and my mom hugged at home
My friends look at me like I'm out of their zone
Fucked lots of different women, but just your smile made me feel no longer alone
I'm just like hip-hop, living underground
I keep thinking of you and how we used to be down
The sound of her voice and the beautiful smell of her hair
Though gone, somehow, physically, it was still there
I'd love I could do something, because the shit is too much to bear
I don't even know the place were you use to live, but does it matter?
The world looks a lot different after your love turns to hate
All good, it makes people change, while primitive minds are still stuck in the same game
At any time I'd love you to buzz me up and hug me up, like a mother oughta
I was taking care of you like my daughter

Don't you know that time waits for no man?
No fate it's all planned
I'm blessed just to know you
I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night
Can't find, a reason why
God came, to you and I
If I had the chance again, I'd never let you go
Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never know

This is my note that I'll leave behind
It will live forever, until the end of time
I was skeptical in writing it, but you was the first
Who made me drop a tear and not curse
You look just at the tree, not at the forest, that's why you see the worst
I"m starting to think I'll only see you again when I'll open Heavens door
I must go on, though, I can't let everyone step on me, like I'm laid down on the floor


"By the time I'll tell you, we'll probably be dispatched
But when you left that day my love went to Heaven
I thank God, at least I got to know what love really was
But it hurts me to see what true love really does
'Cause even though we never made love, you were all that mattered
It was because I loved you so much that I felt to make you understand better
You made me doubt the way I thought of the world, you made me believe
But then I slipped up, and I let you get close to me
It was hard to not be openly when people spoke to me
This was not the way our relationship was meant to be
I cried like a man 'cause my feelings were true
Before my death, I promise, my last second will be dedicated to you
Promise that you'll meet me in Heaven, inevitably
No matter what, I'll keep your love forever with me"

What happened for the rest of the day, it's still a blur
But I remember when she left I wish I was dead, instead of her
This story seems to not have a sequel, buried on the 28th, month third
Now you know why Born Unique, who put his feelings on the line, don't fucking fall in love with people
Hold the person that you love closely, if they next to you
The one you love and not the person that simply has sex with you
Appreciate them to the fullest extend, and then beyond
'Cause you never really know what you got until is gone

He Say, She Say

Since I know what you're thinking...
I'll just say it for ya
I'm not afraid to sing it for the world since 'music' is my only persistent love

Some say he's basic, some say he has many faces
They say he's with the nation of Islam and he's a racist
Some people don't like him, some say he got a lot of skill
Some say if he's so good then how come he ain't got a deal?
Some say he's too hood, some say that he ain't hood enough
They say "yeah, he can rap, but his beats ain't good enough"
You think about him everyday, I felt what you thought
See, he ain't even gotta car that fool ain't got no bread
"His partners's crazy, yo, don't hang around too long with them
Girl, he don't even drink or smoke weed, what's wrong with him?"
The love that he had, he figured out a way to lose it
He only hates the radio cause they don't play rap music
He's always claiming that he'll help you, when he know he wouldn't
He bragging 'bout he never left the hood, that's 'cause he couldn't
To me is looking like he's losing, but he say he winning
Always rapping about the Lord, but yet he's steady sinning

He say she say criticizing, steady doubt me
I ain't gotta be around ya, I know what you said about me
Just cause you don't understand my path you wanna re-route me
Fighting with my demons and eventually I'll get em out me

He too mediocre for rapping, beside his rhyming been expired
As idol a twenty-year old dude in the game, not rich, just get retired
Maybe he can get more fans and retype his image
He'd sell the hood out in a second for the right percentage
He'd need to hit the mainstream to increase his fame
Look at his clothes, he ain't fly, where's his piece and change?
They say he looking all political and acting tough
I bet he'll act right if them people ever snatched him up
He's judgmental, he's looking down on those with low knowledge
He ain't never had the struggle, he had both his parents
He tells a lot of lies, none of that's true what you heard
He never faced off with the pictures he raps about, just words
He need to get a real job, all that time he wasted....
I seen him at the club all the time skirt chasing
He always talking about grinding, he ain't getting dough
His partner called him to help him fight, but he ain't even show

He say she say criticizing, steady doubt me
I ain't gotta be around ya, I know what you said about me
Just cause you don't understand my path you wanna re-route me
Fighting with my demons and eventually I'll get em out me

He say she say criticizing, steady doubt me
I ain't gotta be around ya, I know what you said about me
Just cause you don't understand my path you wanna re-route me
Fighting with my demons and eventually I'll get em out me

He ain't moving no units his stash ain't loaned with G's
I seen him at the block parties selling his own CD's
First chance he get a knife in your back is where it be stickin'
He act like he a mack, I know for a fact he be trickin'
All of his concepts ain't new, some of them slightly covered
He'll never meet his wife and like each other
Who's a G? Yeah, he cool but he ain't cool as me
For love he could even raise another man's child, what kinda fool is he?
He really wants to be a star, he persistently fronts
He disses mainstream rappers, that's publicity stunts
How can he give you advices with all his bad decisions?
He always tryna' convert people to his religion
They say he should've went to college to earn a degree
Why should I buy his album when I could burn it for free?
But I got words that you won't be remembered, you heard?
First step: accept the truth, step out of your world

He say she say criticizing, steady doubt me
I ain't gotta be around ya, I know what you said about me
Just cause you don't understand my path you wanna re-route me
Fighting with my demons and eventually I'll get em out me

He say she say criticizing, steady doubt me
I ain't gotta be around ya, I know what you said about me
Just cause you don't understand my path you wanna re-route me
Fighting with my demons and eventually I'll get em out me

Unconditional Love

Everyone wants it: Unconditional Love.
Talk about stuff you don't want when you really want them.
This is for everyone who puts pride above feelings
Crazy days, crazy nights, whether you wrong or you right, you can't affect unconditional love
This is for my only one: you'll always be in my heart, 'cause of unconditional love.

Please, listen to my truest thoughts, my truest feelings
Why do you make me feel days like years ?
How many trials do we need 'til you see it's hard to live this live without Love?
You must learn how to forgive before you think about moving on
You still think i deserve to die
While witness your tears dropping from your lonely eye
Before you reply, don't forget when you think of me, I am the moon
Watching your favorite cartoons in my living room
One day I hope I'll find you again, a fool in this game
Baby don't cry, as long as I try I may make things change
I hope is not just a fantasy
One day I really hope we can be a family
Maybe is me that caused it. the fighting and the hurting
In my room crying 'cause I didn't want to be a burden
I suddenly feel your illusion coming by the door and hugging me
I'm sure to not be worried about a damn thang, 'cause what we got is unconditional love

In this game the lesson's in your eyes to see
Though things change, the future's still inside of me
We must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark
So you will always be in my heart, with unconditional love

In this game the lesson's in your eyes to see
Though things change, the future's still inside of me
We must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark
So you will always be in my heart, with unconditional love

I"ve waited for a message for few week'
Been fighting death for you, but still have had the chance to speak
You and Me was something real, we could never be enemy
"cause you've been much more than a friend to me
I wonder what would I be without my Love
Oh, wait I am without it, that's why I don't understand who I are
Now I'm just driven by my ambitions, desiring higher position
But, eternally, my dream is much more of being a rap musician
Still I would love to make today's generation listen
Crying while I'm writing this composition
I told you without you I'd be nothing, but ambition
But I'm trying to make you understand with all this bustin'
Unconditional love, something you're afraid to achieve 'cause you're scared
Please, don't get fooled, your heart is the only one who'll be bled
I wish I'd find a word to reefer at you as cussing
Since day one, my love had been unstopping

In this game the lesson's in your eyes to see
Though things change, the future's still inside of me
We must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark
So you will always be in my heart, with unconditional love

In this game the lesson's in your eyes to see
Though things change, the future's still inside of me
We must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark
So you will always be in my heart, with unconditional lov

I prolly will never understand your way
But everyday, I swear I tried to understand what you'd say
I saw a baby, inside, with you same eyes
I wish I could have the power to die in these hard times
I thought about how I never made it
Maybe is the way I played it in my heart, before I could realize it
My dream is to be a star
But it ain't easy to realize who we really are
I don't give a jack about all the currency
If I don't have the right person to whom share my seed
Please, don't make me think that after all the pain I struggled
Don't make me think that just my dreams mattered
Hopping for a better day
Maybe a peaceful night, baby don't cry
Wish, in hard times, you'd lay your head on my shoulder
'Cause I'm a real soldier
I know you never treated me bad, no matter how I was
I feel it while you reading this, unconditional love


In this game the lesson's in your eyes to see
Though things change, the future's still inside of me
We must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark
So you will always be in my heart, with unconditional love

In this game the lesson's in your eyes to see
Though things change, the future's still inside of me
We must remember that tomorrow comes after the dark
So you will always be in my heart, with unconditional love

Dance With The Devil

I once knew a man whose real name was Christian
His primary concern, was making a million
Being the illest hustler, that the world ever seen
He used to fuck movie stars and sniff coke in his dreams
A corrupted young mind, at the age of thirteen
Kid never had a father and his mom was a feen
She put the pipe down, but for every year she was sober
Her son's heart simultaneously grew colder
He started hanging out selling bags in the projects
Checking the young chicks, looking for hit and run prospects
He was fascinated by material objects
But he understood money never bought respect
He build a reputation cause he could hustle and steal
But got locked once and didn't hesitate to squeal
So criminals he chilled with didn't think he was real
You see, me and people like this have never been equal
I don't project my insecurities at other people
He fed for props like addicts with pipes and needles
So he felt he had to prove to everyone he was evil
A fever minded young man with infinite potential
The product of a ghetto bred capitalistic mental
Coincidentally dropped out of school to sell weed
Dancing with the devil, smoked til his eyes would bleed
But he was sick of selling trees and gave into his greed

Everyone trying to be trife never face the consequences
You probably only did a month for minor offenses
Ask a man doing life if he had another chance
But then again there's always the wicked at new and advanced
Dance forever with the devil on a cold cell block
But thats what happens when you rape, murder and sell rock
Devils used to be gods, angels that fell from the top
There's no diversity because we're burning in the melting pot

So Billy started robbing people, anything he could do
He'd get his respect back, in the eyes of his crew
Starting fights over little shit, up on the block
Stepped up to selling mothers and brothers the crack rock
Working overtime, making money for the crack spot
Hit the jackpot and wanted to move up to cocaine
For filling the "Scarface" fantasy stuck in his brain
Tired of the block people treating him the same
He wanted to be major like the cut throats and the thugs
But when he tried to step to 'em, people showed him no love
They told him any motherfucking coward can sell drugs
Any bitch man with a gun can bust slugs
Any kid with a red shirt can front like a blood
Even Puffy smoked the motherfucker up in a club
But only a real thug can stab someone till they die
Standing in front of them, starring straight into their eyes
Billy realized that these men were well guarded
And they wanted to test him, before business started
Suggested raping a bitch to prove he was cold hearted
So now he had a choice between going back to his life
Or making money with made men, up in the cife
His dreams about cars and ice, made him agree
A hardcore man is all he ever wanted to be
And so he met them Friday night at a quarter to three

Everyone trying to be trife never face the consequences
You probably only did a month for minor offenses
Ask a man doing life if he had another chance
But then again there's always the wicked at new and advanced
Dance forever with the devil on a cold cell block
But thats what happens when you rape, murder and sell rock
Devils used to be gods, angels that fell from the top
There's no diversity because we're burning in the melting pot

They drove around the projects slow, while it was raining
Smoking blunts, drinking and joking for entertainment
Until they saw a woman on the street, walking alone
Three in the morning, coming back from work, on her way home
And so they quietly got out the car and followed her
Walking through the projects the darkness swallowed her
They wrapped her shirt around her head and knocked her onto the floor
"This is it kid now you got your chance to be raw"
So Billy oaked her up and grapped the chick by the hair
And dragged her into a lobby that had nobody there
She struggled her hard but they forced her to go up the stairs
They got to the roof and then held her down on the ground
Screaming "shut the fuck up" and "stop moving around"
The shirt covered her face, but she screamed in clouts
So Billy stomped on the bitch, until he broken her jaw
The dirty bastards knew exactly what they were doing
They kicked her until they cracked her ribs and she stopped moving
Blood leaking through the cloth, she cried silently
And then they all proceeded to rape her violently
Billy was meant to go first, but each of them took a turn
Ripping her up, and choking her until her throat burned
A broken jaw mumbled for god but they weren't concerned
When they were done and she was lying bloody, broken and broose
One of them kids pulled out a brand new twenty-two
They told him that she was a witness of what she'd gone through
And if he killed her he was guaranteed a spot in the crew
He thought about it for a minute, she was practicly dead
And so he leaned over and put the gun right to her head

I'm falling and I can't turn back
I'm falling and I can't turn back

Right before he pulled the trigger, and ended her life
He thought about the cold pain with the platinum and ice
And he felt strong standing along with his new brothers
Cocked the gat to her head, and pulled back the shirt cover
But what he saw made him start the cringing studder
Cuz he was starring into the eyes of his own mother
She looked back at him and cried, cause he had forsaken her
She cried more painfully, than when they were raping her
His whole world stopped, he couldn't even contemplate
His corruption had successfully changed his fate
And he remembered how his mom used to come home late
Working hard for nothing, cause now what was he worth?
He turned away from the woman that had once given him birth
And crying out to the sky cause he was lonely and scared
But only the devil responded, cause God wasn't there
And right then he knew what it was to be empty and cold
And so he jumped off the roof and died with no soul
They say death takes you to a better place but I doubt it
After that they killed his mother and never spoke about it
And listen cause the story that I'm telling is true
Cuz I was there with Billy Jacobs and I raped his mom too
And now the devil follows me everywhere that I go
Infact I'm sure he's standing among one of you at my shows
And every street cypher listening to little thugs flows
He could be standing right next to you and you wouldn't know
The devil grows inside the hearts of the selfish and wicked
White, brown, yellow and black colored is not restricted
You have a self destructive destiny when you're inflicted
And you'll be one of gods children and fell from the top
There's no diversity because we're burning in the melting pot
So when the devil wants to dance with you, you better say never
Because the dance with the devil might last you forever