marți, 5 aprilie 2011

My Life Of Love

Broken bones, shattered dreams.

I wasn't the kinda dude who use to fall in love
But I couldn't resist to this one girl
The type of girl I'd sit and contemplate marriage with
Fuck the horse and carriage shit, her love was never for hire
Disciplined, intellectual beauty's what I desire
Higher than the sun and constellations
Everyone told me, kicking it to her was hopeless
At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids
As the thug slicks always brag about how they smoke kids
But poor-sniff-intelligent kids got no play
"I'm not even interested", is what her body language would say
Everyone around the way, gave up trying to get in it
'Cause didn't matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it
On the block, bitches was jealous, but wouldn't admit it
Talk shit, and deny to everyone that they did it
'Cause they regretted the long list of people that they let hit it
And no one ever gave her shit except McDonald's and Burger King
Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it
She smoked intelligently and they bit it, always trying to copy
But when they tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy
She had a style, all her own, respectful and pure
I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a cure

Don't you know that time waits for no man?
No fate it's all planned
I'm blessed just to know you
I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night
Can't find, a reason why
God came, to you and I
If I had the chance again, I'd never let you go
Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never know

Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad
We used to go out occasionally and we was glad
I wasn't just another man tryna' get in it
So every now and then we'd stop and talk for a minute
I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours
On her birthday I should've gave her a poem with flowers
Would have wanted to take you out to dinner, fresh after a shower
And talk about random stuff like: power to the people and such
We'd spend more time together, but it was never enough
Sometimes I'd try and sneak a touch but never cop a feel
I was too interested in keeping it real, perfectly honest and complete
You'd never call me by my name, and that's something I loved
'Cause it made me understand you'd see more in me that I actually showed
The last time we saw each other I had intentions of buying you a book
You forever made me change the expressions of my thoughts, how I speak, my look
It was because of her I even deaded all of my freaks
Just with her love she convinced me to stop giving attention to the streets
To stop hating and judging people like you
I'd have loved to go on a far distant trip with you
Got to a point where I was either wit her or my crew
So I decided, one day, would tell her my feelings were true
I couldn't live without her, so I'd tell her, facing my fears
My honey's only response would be a face full of tears
She could only sob hysterically and holding me tight
I'd try o leave but you wouldn't stop until I'd leave sight
That's just how I'd have wanted to be, now I'm just a moth who got itself too close to light
Except I didn't burn but turned cold after that night

Don't you know that time waits for no man?
No fate it's all planned
I'm blessed just to know you
I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night
Can't find, a reason why
God came, to you and I
If I had the chance again, I'd never let you go
Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never know

Leaving me seemed like she ended my career
Lost the feeling of living, it will never completely disappear
People would talk to me like they were the overseer
I never listened to them, 'cause I still felt you near
One night in my room I closed my eyes and I seen her
Hold her close to my dreams, but when I opened them she disappeared
Just an empty shell, no longer whole
still waiting for that ring tone to play when you call me on my phone
The fact of the matter is that love made me more cold
Even after countless females and my mom hugged at home
My friends look at me like I'm out of their zone
Fucked lots of different women, but just your smile made me feel no longer alone
I'm just like hip-hop, living underground
I keep thinking of you and how we used to be down
The sound of her voice and the beautiful smell of her hair
Though gone, somehow, physically, it was still there
I'd love I could do something, because the shit is too much to bear
I don't even know the place were you use to live, but does it matter?
The world looks a lot different after your love turns to hate
All good, it makes people change, while primitive minds are still stuck in the same game
At any time I'd love you to buzz me up and hug me up, like a mother oughta
I was taking care of you like my daughter

Don't you know that time waits for no man?
No fate it's all planned
I'm blessed just to know you
I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night
Can't find, a reason why
God came, to you and I
If I had the chance again, I'd never let you go
Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never know

This is my note that I'll leave behind
It will live forever, until the end of time
I was skeptical in writing it, but you was the first
Who made me drop a tear and not curse
You look just at the tree, not at the forest, that's why you see the worst
I"m starting to think I'll only see you again when I'll open Heavens door
I must go on, though, I can't let everyone step on me, like I'm laid down on the floor


"By the time I'll tell you, we'll probably be dispatched
But when you left that day my love went to Heaven
I thank God, at least I got to know what love really was
But it hurts me to see what true love really does
'Cause even though we never made love, you were all that mattered
It was because I loved you so much that I felt to make you understand better
You made me doubt the way I thought of the world, you made me believe
But then I slipped up, and I let you get close to me
It was hard to not be openly when people spoke to me
This was not the way our relationship was meant to be
I cried like a man 'cause my feelings were true
Before my death, I promise, my last second will be dedicated to you
Promise that you'll meet me in Heaven, inevitably
No matter what, I'll keep your love forever with me"

What happened for the rest of the day, it's still a blur
But I remember when she left I wish I was dead, instead of her
This story seems to not have a sequel, buried on the 28th, month third
Now you know why Born Unique, who put his feelings on the line, don't fucking fall in love with people
Hold the person that you love closely, if they next to you
The one you love and not the person that simply has sex with you
Appreciate them to the fullest extend, and then beyond
'Cause you never really know what you got until is gone

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