Don't Leave Me

This is my testament for that young girl who didn't know what she wanted from her life when she had everything.  She seemingly left me behind...but this was written in your soul by my words.
You'll know what I mean by the time I'm gone and you're the only one who couldn't make me disappear, you just have to find yourself.

I'm standing in the light, but the darkness overcrowded me
Guilt and doubt is try'na eat its way up to me
I'm imbalanced spiritually, psychologically, cosmically
What you looking at is real, no tricks photography
See I got a lot sins weighing on my consciousness
Knowing all my falsments be uncomfortable with compliments
Still daily I pray to win, mental roof caving in
Laboring to shake all the bad behavior I'm bathing in
Every devil with Satanic knowledge I'm denouncing them
'Cause when it counts I can't benefit an ounce from ya counciling
My visions reigns from giant pictures to wallet frames
Got a list of solid things that I wish that I could change
My mind is stuck in the past no hope there to be fed
Cause I can't turn the channel like the remote battery's dead
And out my heart I can't tune it
Although it's been years since I consumed it, it Illumes in my soul is still wounded

Lord I'm trying so please don't leave me
I plan on changing but it's not easy
If I start walking to ya I know you will need me
I can't let the forces of this world defeat me
HmmmHmmmHmmmHmmm
Don't leave me
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Got knowledge but I'm trifling, I just want my life again
God's the only friend you got, why the hell you fighting Him?
Chasing all these earthly things, my standards I set 'em low
The stuff I lusted never gave me jack but I won't let em go
My past be harassing me
I try to magically trash it but it recast itself with perfect accuracy
Confession, passive aggression...
Is life daily past predestined or left in our hands is the question?
Whatever made you presume me please don't give those praises to me
I'm a foolish vessel blessed to have the most high speaking through me
I'm grateful for whatever way He might see fit to use me
Giving me the credit only proves to me you never knew me
To the unperceptive kind I appear to be blind
Maybe because I think with my heart and I see with my mind
You're looking at a working process, not yet solid
One stage is the elevation, this is not the finished product

Lord I'm trying so please don't leave me
I plan on changing but it's not easy
If I start walking to ya I know you will need me
I can't let the forces of this world defeat me
HmmmHmmmHmmmHmmm
Don't leave me
HmmmHmmmHmmmHmmm

Damn, it seems hopeless, got great frustration
So how can I focus to chase salvation?
With my discipline not strong as temptations
New ways coming daily, creatively persuading me

I hope to be free with the revelation I received
To possibility be an example of what I believe
The road to accepting my own
It's true that I been hit with a few stones, but how many have I thrown?
See, my best I gave it, that test I aced it
But I feel like all this music I'm making is being wasted
Sadness kicks in "is it worth it?", my mind wonders
Still I understand that power is not always in numbers
I'm almost empty; it's two doors within me
See one is God's door and the other is where *** be
So bring me to where I meant to be through wise council
I win with you but I'm less than nobody without you

Lord I'm trying so please don't leave me
I plan on changing but it's not easy
If I start walking to ya I know you will need me
I can't let the forces of this world defeat me
HmmmHmmmHmmmHmmm
Don't leave me
HmmmHmmmHmmmHmmm