The Me You Don't See

I been torn down by the world, now it's time to rebuild
I'm real enough to call you fake and you too fake to tell me that I'm real
Out of your two sides which one will we know?
The real side behind closed doors, or the one that you show?
When I'm alone I talk to myself, that's strange to you?
I think we all do, you crazy if you don't in my view
Showing as much of my game face the world can consume
But how do I carry myself when it's just me in a room?
Don't get me wrong, I thank the good Lord for blessing my stillness
Like ignorance, seems to get more blessings than realness
Positivity I condone, but still I'm prone to do evil
Have you ever felt alone inside a room full of people?
If we could read minds for a day and hear what your best friends ain't speaking
You might be shocked, if you knew what some of these people were thinking
About you, yeah you, I know that I'm being felt
You can tell them lies to me, but you can't lie to yourself

The side of me (The side of me) that you don't see (that you don't see)
That shows the pain (shows the pain) and the misery (and the misery)
That I'm going through, (I'm going through) but never showing you (I never showed to you)
But when I'm all alone,(All alone) this is what I do (What I do)

My bad side, I'm guilty, you're barely checking that
I dream that I shed tears, the second that you came back
I activate thoughts and sharpen my wits
The deeper you go inside my heart the darker it gets
I rarely speak about my personal life, the things that I've done
Like that moment I tried to commit suicide in 2009
Or was it 2008? I can't remember myself
I can't forget where I came from 'cause I never left
Now, if I wanna live I gotta bring my serious mind back
I put nothing past nobody and it's a period behind that
I been the villain and the victim, but my love is blind black
If you ain't sure you heard me right, then rewind that line back
I take the bad with the good, 'cause they feed each other
I might be tripping, but it's kinda like they need each other
Because without good, the bad wouldn't be seen as such
And without the bad, the good might not mean as much

The side of me (The side of me) that you don't see (that you don't see)
That shows the pain (shows the pain) and the misery (and the misery)
That I'm going through, (I'm going through) but never showing you (I never showed to you)
But when I'm all alone,(All alone) this is what I do (What I do)


The me you don't see, the side that tends to play men
The side everyday he asked God to forgive him for the same sin
The side of me that's scared to fail and won't face the ill winds
That daily doubts the existence of real friends
The real me, not the M.C. who brags and boasts
The man who under appreciates women that he loves the most
The side of me that wanna give up, but will never admit it
Who knows the moves I pulled, was out of line, but still went and did it
I'm trying to gather good intentions and abolish what's left
The man that's sitting inside the whore house having a real love in his self
Do I think it's fair? I make music that not many jam
Or hourly say I ain't tripping, but inside I really am
Women come and go, relationships were never what they could be
Some loved me, but I don't think none of em understood me
Cause if they did, we'd still be together, possibly
But I can't cry about it, 'cause whatever happened was meant to be.

The side of me (The side of me) that you don't see (that you don't see)
That shows the pain (shows the pain) and the misery (and the misery)
That I'm going through, (I'm going through) but never showing you (I never showed to you)
But when I'm all alone,(All alone) this is what I do (What I do)